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Racism 

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This week there has been quite the headlines about justice towards racism, is it being served?

A few years ago if you had asked me whether or not racism was dead in this country I would have said, yes! Now without doubt I say, no!  

I have taught in some very diverse schools and in some not so much.  I have taught all one race classrooms in fact. I am not proud of it, it was just the students I was given at the time. I have seen one big difference, which of course could be argued a big difference between all these classrooms, which of course could be argued but this is how I saw it. 

Some students were told by their parents you may be a slob, messy and disrespectful at home but once you are out there you are on your best behavior not matter who it is and the discipline that would follow would always be the power of disappointment and your grounded. Whereas the culture in another home might be if you don’t treat your parents or the leader of a gang as your king or queen fears of spankings, tugged away by ears and even worse threats or acts issued was the punishment.  Then there was also the culture of raising your kids to stand up for injustice, no matter what.  This is how I was taught,  I could easily get into a screaming argument with my mother if I thought she was being unfair.  

So how do teachers, principals and cops deal with these differences of attitude toward authorities!  As with anything, the situation, the person, background knowledge along with what is the ultimate end result decide how a person should respond to misbehavior.  For the simple reality if the student grew up with the idea well your not ________ so I don’t have to listen to you or they grew up thinking to respect authority even when they never met the person each requires a different response. To put it another way, in the teacher world there is this saying you can’t change the behavior until you know the cause of the behavior. 

Have you noticed so far I have taken out labeling certain cultures and that is because I have seen it isn’t just one culture that does one thing, it is the culture the family has adopted that decides how they raise their kids and respond to authorities. I also don’t say it because I think labeling adds to racism rather than recognizing how you treat someone.  I believe what is extremely important is the behavior over all else.

That is why teachers are told remain calm, model correct behavior, and use redirection often. Teachers or maybe even yourself may have feelings of rage, if they didn’t at least once throughout their career they have or they couldn’t be human.  Though even then most teachers, cops or even professionals often don’t show it.  How you vent your anger determines your level of professionalism, even if you are in competitive career.  I have heard that when learning martial arts most instructors will tell you it is for self defense only and a true martial artists only fights if they absolutely when necessary.  Fight or flight is what they call those situations, a person broken down to their most primal response fight or flight.  Now again even in martial arts or in the culture you were raised you are taught a true character of a person is determined by the words chosen even in the worst situation. What is the saying fight with might versus braun, something like that, I have heard it so many different ways but the meaning is still the same body slams and fists are not as effective as language used. 

Therefore I have come to the conclusion that even I need to remind myself to protest smart and calmly, everyone will feel safer.  

As for the racism issue, if you trust a person to drive your car, build your house, prepare meals, wash your clothes, take care of your children, sick and elderly then you can trust them to be CEOs.  I will also think the issue of racism is over when we have diverse rich neighborhoods.

-Jennie Nawrocki 

Disappointment 

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Disappointment is quite a word.  It really defines a persons expectations of you or the situation.  I think of all the mistakes I have made, the people affected by all my decisions.  Though I also think how much I am affected by them too. The effect people have on you or you on them is never really known until long after it happens and then disappointment sets in because all expectations were lost. I found out recently people have only one expectation of me.  The only thing I can say to that is with every behavior I will move towards building trust of me, to be a leader and an honored friend and family member.

-Jennie Nawrocki 

Pride

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Some people aren’t like that, they have access to what they want, who they are and have control over their lives. Have pride in who you are.

No matter what if you are what you want to be. Have pride in who you are.

-Jennie Nawrocki 

Happy Father’s Day

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Dads are a peculiar thing, they don’t hold you in their womb for nine months or have numerous hours of being labor with you like moms do.  However they went to the store bought any craving item needed along with listened, watched and supported tirelessly as she screamed UGH! Then took on the same weighted role of responsibility of raising us.  That is the person I will admire and remember on Father’s Day! That is a dad.

Happy Father’s Day!

-Jennie Nawrocki 

Summer

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Bring the flowers blooming after the harsh winter.  The blue sky fills with warmth and shines upon the lush green grass, growing from saturated soil from the melting snow.  The rains contribute also, for those days it is too dry. For the heat only comes high enough to bring comfort that the summer months are here. 

-Jennie Nawrocki

Subliminal Messaging 

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It is a well known thing that I confuse things or put things together that don’t belong together. For instance, transposing letters or words as I am speaking or typing.  I am infamous for not getting all my homophones right.  For example there, their and they’re, even double checking my writing I still get some of them mixed up.  Therefore (that time I got it right) I would and have taken it to the next step and associate concepts with items or people that wouldn’t normally have those associations.  

All to often, I will think as I walk around that person looks like this person or see them do something that reminds me of some one or something else.  Personally, I think some people do it on purpose but that is a whole other conversation.  If you don’t believe me think about advertising. We all know advertisers have suggestive themes to make you buy their products.  Well people can do that too.  Whenever someone wants something maybe for a birthday or their spouse complete the “honey do” list ( I don’t like the title of that either) it has been suggested to you indirectly or directly.  Well those same people could get you thinking about things you may never thought of or put together.  As a result, there are certain associations that my mind connects with certain people through past experiences. Believe me some of them do not go well together. Seriously, I have seen some nasty pictures as of late on social media that I literally want to throw my phone but stopped the urge because my complaints only seem to help it more.  Which is the exact opposite of what I wanted to happen.  Yes, subliminal messaging works well on me and yes, it is that bad. Then you combine that with I am a confused person to begin with and my innate process of connecting things to what I already know, the situation gets even worse.

Let me give you an example of how this chain of events could take a wrong turn.  As babies we are gven those soft furry stuffed toys or blankets.  You have seen it or I am positive you have touched a stuffed toy and commented on how soft it is.  Heck before PETA mink coats were the thing, for several reasons even. Women in classic movies were always wanting them because they were soft and expensive.  Though soon and extremely right we were found out we evolved from needing to kill animals for their fur as our clothing.  So the softest synthetic fur came to be that is used today for all sorts of things including stuffed animals. We have even taken protecting animals even more by buying food and implementing grooming regimes to ensure they have a healthy coat of fur.  Which they then think as they pet their family friend, how soft their fur is.  

Well when I was a child I had this big white soft teddy bear, it was really big.  In fact, the half shirt I wore in Middle School and High School (man my teachers hated that shirt) fit very well on this white teddy bear and he is still wearing it to this day.  Though of course as a little girl I would hug, play and even lay my head on this teddy bear.  Now my family was also into Samoyed Dogs, if you haven’t seen one they are big white fluffy sled dogs, whose shedding could make several chihuahua sweaters. To continue with the putting things together in weird ways.  This one day I closed my eyes and could see a picture of me about to bury my head in a whole bunch of fur.  You would think nothing of it considering I had a whole bunch of white fluff in my life.  

Though here is where it takes the turn.  I almost screamed, well at least in my mind I did, I said what the heck, what am I doing? Ew! This is where social media can give subliminal messaging to. I started to think that fur is not good and you shouldn’t even hold a pet close to you your face or hug a pet because it is bad, sick and wrong.  That is why I became anxious I was like what is going on here? I freaked out a little to be honest.  Now it has gotten to the point where I get weirded out even thinking of petting an animal. How stupid is that, though that is the power of subliminal messaging and the horrible cycle I want to get out of before I question other perfectly normal things such as petting animals.

-Jennie Nawrocki 

Open Road

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My world is much different than it used to be.  I find myself at times feeling in between the old and new and no man’s land where nothing seems to move, all at the same time.  I am reminded of a scene in Castaway (if you haven’t seen the movie the next part spoils it, so stop reading see the movie and then read further).  It is when he is at an intersection and he has to decide which direction to go.  The open road stood before him but seemingly without direction or goal, for few who have achieved what he had are given a blank slate in which to rebuild their lives.  Did he forget where he grew up or came from “NO!” he will build on it and probably even explore new things. One never forgets their past, for it is always with them, but one never stops learning too.  When faced with an assumed wall or an open road choices have to be made, before they are made for you.
-Jennie Nawrocki 

Talk

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Years have gone by when conversations had merit between the few people they involved. Topics ranged on moods, personalities and general comfort between the people talking.  However caution took hold and slowly less and less was mentioned.  I became lost in a world that seemed to connect to nothing.  When I actually talk with someone, my interest increases with unexplored topics, how they really feel and always a funny story.  There ain’t nothing like a few giggles and smiles to relieve the stress that may be occurring.  So my readers talk until your hearts content.

-Jennie Nawrocki