There is much to celebrate tonight. Penaugural is now a Corporation specifically Non-profit Corporation. So keep those donation dollars coming and soon we will be able to have a brick and mortar store too.

Thank you to all those that made this possible and keep reading but most of all create art and lots of it. For we need it now more than ever.

-Jennie Nawrocki

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Being close to 50 years old and not having any children I still give and have given the knowledge I have to those students I taught and all my nieces and nephews. As always there have been more women in my family then men. Most of my nieces and nephews are out of college and starting their own careers. I could be a meany such as Cronos, Oedipus, King Arthur and Shaka Khan as well as many other famous stories where their kingdoms were overthrown by their successors and in some ways mine has but in other ways I still can ease the transition or what is left of it.

If I haven’t said I was proud of them for doing better then me now I will and I will also say my last suggestions that they may want listen to even if it is from their crazy Aunt Jennie.

My nephew went to University of Mass at Amherst where I was accepted but had to decline and went to the University of Washington instead.

My niece received a Bachelor’s Degree in Chemistry my worst subject.

My other niece heals the minds of those in need and coming from a family with a history of depression is very good and models healthy habits as a result.

My sister and her daughter work together without bickering as my mom and I never could.

My other nephews are following my brothers path.

And other niece has surpassed her depression early and moved on to leading those around her.

So much to be proud of as a Aunt.

Here is my advice if you so choose to take it to further your ascension into a life better than mine. To be honest you might know this already but that is why I am crazy telling you information you already know.

Find love but most important know what makes you excel inside and out and harvest those talents, skills and behaviors.

Listen. Know the motivation. Process all possibilities. Proceed morally and ethically correct. There is always knowledge to gain.

If you loved camping and drinking straight from those glacier fed waterways. Save our environment. Mother Earth needs your help and support.

Speak to stop injustices or inequalities. Though be effective and respectful in your approach without cruelty. It creates friendship and stronger relationships afterwards.

Exercise, brush your teeth and eat your fruits and vegetables silly.

Last but not least.

Just as I accomplished every Thanksgiving I hosted keep the good traditions and the mood comfortable with lots of laughter they might want to return next year. For I always said the more the merrier and you are always welcome.

I might have more but that is all I can think of at the moment.

So excel you excel in more ways I could ever imagine.

-Jennie Nawrocki

A new beginning is usually said after the holidays on New Years Day but seriously how much changes from December to January except we put our holiday decorations away which really began in October anyway. Sometimes I really do think we need to rethink our calendars.

I think I once read that they were thinking of making all holidays land on a Friday not only would that helpful for business and schools it helps with planning but it creates routine. Don’t get me wrong I like routine just like everyone else but I also like it when events are out of the ordinary too. Some would say my abnormal is normal. Though I am not here to talk about one routine that I think we have all adjusted to and it’s not don’t wear white after Labor Day well maybe kinda.

I think the true New Year is September specifically Labor Day weekend or Labor Day itself. Think about it what happens or should I say begins the first week in September? So much that is! How many events start in September or that first week.

School for one. What comes into your life but new teachers, books, friends and after school activities. Think about it most of us are either in school or our children attend schools. The back to school activities change our lives our routines so much but in January we return after a few weeks off nothing different than before the holidays except to wait til summer when real change begins again.

What else starts in September but of course tv series and sitcoms. They usually last from September to the beginning of May. I realize some of that has changed but seriously most tv shows new seasons or years premiere in September. Even Ellen and The View are touting how many years they have been on air and each new year for them starts when, September that’s right September.

Even Congress and the Supreme Court begin passing legislation and decisions in September after a summer recess. That is right we still use words like recess for adults getting time off from working so hard. Ironically though the bills they do pass generally don’t take effect until January First so I will give you that but compared to school beginning, having to mandate showing the allergy ingredients warnings on menus like calories in fast food restaurants isn’t a huge change like having to go to football practice everyday with your daughter. So yeah even politicians begin debating again in September.

What else initiates in September well award season that’s what. The MTV Video Music Awards and the Emmys are culmination of the years previous work given out in you guessed it September or is few days before. Yes all those awards begin just as fall shows its colors.

So much changes on or around Labor Day that I think we all need to accept that September isn’t to be disregarded as the month that has its only holiday as a day off from work but as the beginning or New Year just as those who are Jewish have known all along when they celebrate their religious New Year Rosh Hashanah every year in September. So maybe we should all realize it is time to say Happy New Year in September.

-Jennie Nawrocki

The wearing of white after Labor Day is all a personal choice but the Labor Day marker of a new beginning for starting to wear long sleeves and long pants to stay warm isn’t.

Remember those

Who give you inspiration

Who valued relationships

Didn’t ask or demand respect

But received it anyway

Ones who are there for you

Educate without belittling

These are the hero’s

We need

We require

Is to be our best selves

-Jennie Nawrocki

Many moons ago I started writing letters to a band then they said stop so I did I stopped sending them to that band and just wrote myself daily and towards the end several emails to myself a day all about what has transpired in my life. Heck if something horrible happened I write what just happened? why did you do that?

Then my computer went dark, hacked by the neighbors. It was useless really to even think I could have a computer so I sold it. I haven’t been able to afford a new computer since.

So that December was really the end of my world as I new it. Everything and everyone changed around me and I felt that is truly when I started running on my hamster wheel ever since or as some even myself refer to it as the road to nowhere.

Why do I say that because time, space, family, friends and all the freedoms I had were gone and none of them have returned because well as I was told I was never coming back.

So when those around me that actually do take the time to write an email or call or even converse with me I wonder if this is the one that talks to me freely as though no one was listening again. Some say no one is listening or if they are listening no one cares.

I don’t know what is worse to have a conversation with someone and they don’t care and or are motivated to discredit you or just never speaking again.

So here I am almost exactly 6 years to the day I sold my computer and the end of my existence as I knew it still wondering what the heck is going on and why would someone do that?

One thing is we argue and scream at each other and have ever since about the horrible things I have done. I say I haven’t they say I have. It is a never ending argument. An argument that has left me behind.

The ironic thing is that some still ask where did you go why haven’t you called or written how have you not known about this. My reply still is well this blocked me years ago when this hacked my computer so I couldn’t even see my files.

Go home they say. The day I sold my computer was the last day I had a home it was my foundation to the life I once had. I never entered the home they built me, NEVER. Even now I am told of my new home they have built me that I am allowed a little room to occupy. The new normal they call it. I have yet to see it. I just hear about how I am told to go to it but I don’t know where it is or know it wouldn’t really feel like it is home once I get there.

My home was a place I had a say in where I went, who I would speak to and when. I could eat what I wanted, sleep when I wanted and buy what I wanted. I lived alone and haven’t lived with anybody since I moved out of my Greenwood apartment in 1999. Yes it has been that long.

In a different universe since then some say I was married and have had several children along with several cats and dogs and other animals. I have also been called an alien, a witch and the most hated living or dead human being on the planet among other things too. I have been named and termed so much I still write tweets saying remember me Jennie Nawrocki is still Jennie Nawrocki.

The truth is whether I live in that understanding or the common ground understanding I still live alone with my one cat named Sherman. I never had kids or a husband and my mom and my sister calls me on holidays and my birthday. That is basically it I get maybe a couple of more texts, emails or calls but mostly it is just my mom and my sister a few times a year if that. I do have this other person I message but when I mention the name to others or what I do for that person they don’t believe it. In addition, the last time I officially went to party was an office holiday party I had to work at 5 years ago. People talk about quarantine I feel I have been in quarantine since I moved away from Seattle, Washington, I now live in the Bronx, New York. Oh and in that different universe they tell me no I don’t, then I still ask them where do I live?

I talk like I live in different worlds because it feels like I live in different worlds. Unfortunately both seem living disasters right now.

What do I do where do I go? Some tell me go home still back to Washington and I say where my home or any semblance of it is gone and like I am told I can’t run or hide because she will always find me. So if that is the case then my future is not mine it is for she supposedly to determine. So again where is home, my sanctuary, my sense of place where I can gather my pieces of my personal puzzle and put some semblance of my dignity and my honor back together?

It is never going to happen Jennie Nawrocki you don’t deserve it, you deserve nothing.

So I have been asking how does one live their life or progress in any way if they deserve nothing?

Take care and much love,

Yours always Jennie Nawrocki

I started with hope

And that was soon gone

Then I said ok I can adjust

With no end in sight still

But that was soon gone

Just do this and all will be good

Soon I will be free

It is the new normal

Well 2020

You better start showing positivity

Because so far this year sucks

And my patience

Will never subside

Why

Because we have yet

To vote for a president

Also

Winter is coming

And

As soon as hurricane season is done

And the holidays occur

I know something you might not remember

It will be 2021

And a fresh start will begin again

So build hope

Savor flexibility

And most of all

Make your new normal

Better than normal

Because why clean house

If you leave something undone

You got the time

And it is your house anyway

Make it more than tolerable

Only livable

Inclusive

And satisfying

– Jennie Nawrocki

I have been known to write a few emails in my time but one tradition I still keep is the letter. Writing has never hindered only enhanced. What do most people say, it is not finalized until you have it written down. That is why most living beings I hear don’t leave paper trails. Personally I don’t like that because history needs to be reread. How many mistakes have been responded to with “if I had known I wouldn’t have done that.” Notice the cultures that have lived and survived the longest all were steeped in oral and written history. When Ken Burns made his first directorial debut his documentary was filled with letters. They didn’t tell just what happened but the emotional side of it too. As you were watching you felt you were living that moment with them. However when archeologists just find a shard of pottery all they can say is this must have held food. We want mysteries solved to learn from our forefathers to succeed in ways they couldn’t. We need their stories both oral and written.

My family has always been strong story tellers, every family gathering has at least a few. Like the time my sister tried to change the oil in our family Pinto and it ruined the engine or how she became the first person to make her own teriyaki sauce without a recipe. Now how do other family members get the recipe it is written down and passed down generation to generation. She could send via email of course but eventually someone prints out that recipe or rewrites in on a index card. Preservation starts with writing events down.

Preserving history is one thing though in today’s world to write a letter means a lot and to receive a letter it means the world. Most lives are enhanced by reading a letter but most often it is the signature that really brings it home. This was even made famous in the movie Say Anything directed by Cameron Crowe. It is how she signed the letter that tells you how she is really feeling. So whether you hand write your letter on fancy paper or type it on regular white paper. People look forward to that item that someone took to mail.

It breaks the monopoly of screen time but most important someone is saying you mean the world to me just as Lloyd Dobbler wrote. Our country was founded on getting messages to people without technological glitches. Through hail, sleet, rain or snow the United States mail always delivers as long as you answer those questions at the window first.

Therefore I am asking you save our postal service, save our mail for it is a federal crime to tamper with the United States Postal Service. For even my cat acts like Johnny Carson predicting what is in the envelope.

Take care much love,

Yours Always Jennie Nawrocki

My purpose

Never changed

I wanted

To better

The world

In any way

I knew how

I wanted

Give people

With disabilities

A voice

A chance

That was

The same as ours

I wanted

To see everyone

Have opportunity

To be successful

Regardless of where

They came from

I wanted to stop

Seeing suffering

And start seeing

Satisfaction

I wanted

Our planet

To breathe

As though

It just finished

A summer rain

I wanted

What you wanted

To live

Without worry

Starting now

-Jennie Nawrocki

Chance

Always stationery

Relationships stagnant

Nothing changed

We were the same

Years ago

Or weren’t we

Who knows

I haven’t seen you

You haven’t seen me

Only small talk in between

Through wires

Seen and unseen

Even if we don’t

Know each other

We certainly know

The stories

So do we develop healthy

Or stay the same

-Jennie Nawrocki

It is there

Where?

Over there

Where?

Can’t you read

Where?

It is so obvious

Where?

See right here

Where?

Unbelievably easy

Where?

I can’t help you out now

Where?

You need to know

Where?

You are late

Where?

Too late

Where?

Ugh!!!!!!!!

Ugh!!!!!!!!

-Jennie Nawrocki