Even when young I had many nick names, it is easy when you have a very generic name like mine. How else do you distinguish yourself from others with the same name? I also think because I never fit my name. Many times you might have found I had a different personality around people or I picked up and matched others personalities. However lately I have been pretty much the same with people as they all seem to act the same. Which is weird, maybe my personality has gone listless or maybe it was always that way. Though that is not how I remember it and maybe some others too? I had laughing fits and would try and find some way to find situations uplifting. There were times I would just be dancing in the kitchen. My family would say “oh you are just being silly.” It was something I extremely liked doing and still like doing. So if you are like me and want to be silly download Bonk! From the Apple Store.
I have been enchanted by the events occurring around me. Memorizing to say the least. I never pretend to know what will occur though often I could tell that may not be a good idea, if thinking well. Inspiring, wisdom philosophical thoughts may come later but for now my friends and readers I am enjoying living, even in the sad times. Struggles, no. Finding wonders, excellent. That is what makes everything worth it, simple discoveries of comradery.
Years ago it was like I dipped myself in a pool of postive emotions and wanted to spread that to everyone, everywhere and everything. The first few years I was a teacher I spent time and money to give a little birthday gift to all the teachers and even when they said why? I still gave gifts. I only stopped because I bought a condo and lacked the funds.
One year I wanted to learn how to be a Southern cook so I learned to make gumbo, I was going to take to my brothers the next day as a birthday gift. While I was making it my mom called and begged that I would come and sync her iPod for the trip, I left what could have been a ruined gumbo drove almost an hour back and forth to find she had already figured it out. When I gave the gumbo to my brother the biggest compliment he ever gave me it has a different flavor but I like it.
This is who I am and strive to be someone who looks for ways to see people are smiling with joy. That is a goal I renew on my birthday which is today.
Back and forth the tossel of the decision focused without solution. The pattern built by many factors needs adjustment for success of integrity with actuality. When sorting thoughts being conscious of the subconscious and that gut feeling takes precedent in breaking habits one might have gathered haphazardly. What might one concretely say aloud or actions made as a result bring the personality out for others to admire. Though the admiration has its appeal the real accomplishment was to overcome your mental setbacks. Then you truly are master of your own mind.