Monthly Archives: January 2018

Bad Drunks


People always wonder why I don’t drink or have the desire to drink. Once my house was broken into and the thieves well I don’t know what they wanted. The things I found missing were batteries, rice, meat, alcohol and my big bag to put it all in. If I remember correctly not so sure about the meat one. However, I wasn’t even phased by the missing alcohol. The only reason I bought it was for guests when they came over and even then most of my guests didn’t drink because I wouldn’t drink. They thought was weird I would drink a glass of juice or tea to their wine or liquor. All about fitting in I guess but they really started to drink mostly non alcoholic beverages around me. I thought it was a kind gesture even though I had the liquor if they wanted. So how did a girl like me whose family has a history of alcoholism (my grand papa did also I heard) end up not liking alcohol, for that exact reason I saw the destruction it could do if used in excess. Here is one specific example of how alcohol has ruined my life.

My sister a known alcoholic, even attended a AA meeting with her once or twice for support because she was a mean vicious drunk. We have had many arguments around her drinking. She knows I don’t like it when she drinks because she can be so mean, she actually apologized once as one of the 12 steps for all of the horrible things she has said to me. Really these statements made by sister when in this mood will, can and are able to beat you down so emotionally that being around her is impossible. So much so her daughter came to me once and asked to live with me. I talked and discussed it with some people but in the end I remember telling her daughter you can’t live me unless I have your mothers approval and I don’t think I will have that. I thought it would ruin our already fragile sister bond that we had. I could see the expression on her face because it was the same I had entering my sisters house what hell do I have to endure today? She over time has reduced her drinking and is a Buddhist and her behavior has improved dramatically because of it. So we stuck with it, but did we really, we all three are living in three different states at the moment. Now I called, emailed, and text’d and told her I was writing this in my blog because I learned the hard way about mentioning something about someone without telling them in person is a bad mistake. So with all honesty my sentiments are still the same I don’t like being around a bad drunk.

-Jennie Nawrocki

Sorry For The Inconvenience


I have been dealt many blows but this one is my most hated. Each and every time I have heard this phrase in the last 3 years has always been really let me ruin your life until you accept my conditions. Or being sabotaged by the people who supposedly are your friends to make sure you ask for their help to fix the problem they caused in the first place. I have been told it is for the good of society but really all I see it as and will ever see it is as unacceptable behavior. You don’t hate the person who helps you through the flu you hate the flu and the original cause of the virus or cancer. Which is exactly why we got rid of cigarettes and put a warning on them, and called cigarettes, CANCER STICKS.

-Jennie Nawrocki

What Idea Is Stronger Now?


I understand that this may have been a horrible stereotype in the past and glad I wasn’t reminded of it until now. I am distraught to find some humans and people called people with a dark skin color monkeys but nowadays there are new stereotypes and strong ones at that. To all those boys and girls who love the Dora monkey, Rafiki (Lion King), Donkey Kong, King Kong, Curious George, The Monkey King, Koko the Gorilla who knows sign language and my absolute beloved character Caesar from the Planet of the Apes. I wouldn’t mind being a monkey or an ape for that matter. Take the character Caesar for example either in the new or old series. He was sympathetic to humans and worked with them, he didn’t want war he was given war. He wanted a home and was taught that humans had a heart but greed, selfishness and ignorance combined with fear brought something that is horrible, war. Caesar is a hero in any movie you watch, he learned, he taught, he accepted and made a community that would do the same. He was a leader for creating Apes that could form a government and society with the communication abilities that Homo Sapiens continue to improve. It was the people that stepped away from the ideals and fortitude to listen that made stupid asinine wars. He wasn’t a separatist or my race is better than yours Caesar was for equality and living in comradery, a hero, my hero. Thank you to H & M for apologizing for this ad but what you should have done is either put up boys and girls of several races together wearing the same item or not sell anything with that saying because I do know there are some kids who like Caesar or Curious George.

-Jennie Nawrocki

I updated this post to reflect the language of today and to give more explanation of my positive intentions towards all races.

January 2018

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What Is In Front Of You


Often I look at sides

Determining outcomes

I see big things

With small differences

Along with

Small things

With big differences

I read what I can strength

I endure so much more

So the final decision

May not be my first choice

But at least

It was thoroughly

Thought out

Most of the time

What do you expect

I am not perfect

But that doesn’t mean

The next time I have

opportunities available

I remember my mistakes

And all the new information

Given to me

-Jennie Nawrocki