Being a blogger or someone who writes their thoughts every week I watch my news feed quite a bit, it was a very busy week.  

I am in no position to lie, why? Because even when telling things from my point of view, perspective  or my side of the story, it seems everyone has instantaneous access to it.  There is no fooling the public when it is right out there for everyone to see.  Whether that is still true or may have changed recently but there is still the possibility, so I learned I have no secrets or privacy.  It is true someone always finds out.  So I have learned to live my life open and even without white lies. I have also learned to live without.  Unfortunately, to hear a yes that is beneficial and in my favor is a shocking surprise that I look forward to every day even if it may never happen again.  Take it from someone who’s monumental big brother (figuratively and literally) is always watching and controlling my news feed.  While I work at doing and thinking what is right. 

With layers and issues it is hard to separate everything. I fight the bad while thinking of the good.  However, It is not easy when one person wants you to think one way and you know the earth is round.  There is a part of me that is really messed up with everything around, I know this.  The argument is who started it but we know the reality.  We have suggested images etched in the mind from what it is to be believed versus what occurred.  It really is two fold they suggest something and I think, ugh and then I see what is suggested and then that is shown with another possibility then it is upped, my version their version until we all are puking because it got so gross and non of it happened in the first place to begin with, really it is all our imaginations our visions gone twilight zoneish.  I begged not to be inundated by these images,  that was just encouragement as well as anger and ignoring it or even saying no that never occurred, again only encouragement for several years this has gone on until I have found myself surrounded by this poisonous fruit in a room I am stuck in thinking maybe they will let me out maybe, though I know this is not the English Patient but really the Hunger Games with those berries in front of me.

I say what I say because I am the only one who will tell my side of the story. 

-Jennie Nawrocki 

Know there is an end that keeps hope alive.  It is the goal, it is building after disaster or from scratch either young or old.  Hold on to it because that is your strength. 

-Jennie Nawrocki 

I have no revelations this week or venting to spew.  I have been processing the world around.  I don’t think I am the only one who isn’t in the same spot.  I think the transition of the new year whether good or bad has effected most in some way. If you know me as much as I actively embrace positivity in as much of my world as I can, my life is the most unstable it has ever been and I am not just talking about the election of a new president, a transition we are all aware of now. I am talking little things too.  I recently started being a tourist in the city I live and saw this piece below that was intriguing.  I look at everything from here to there, things I had never seen before or things I see from a different point of view. It is all surreal sometimes and sometimes it is very real.  No matter how small or big your transition into the new year has been what matters is all those you included into your sanctuary of family and friends, through kindness towards others.

-Jennie Nawrocki 

PS. Sorry for the bad picture.

I traveled back and forth through time, really of all the memories I have and still try to piece it all together.  How did I get to where I am? I know I have an attitude towards stupid things, no reason to make excuses for it.  However I try to keep and be more positive even when upset. They say calm in times of turmoil shows your personality.  You may be amazed by how much I live by that goal.  Some work for money, of course out of necessity, but for some reason I work for other things like kindness.  I just thought that is what you were supposed to do, take care of other people, that part has never changed and I will work everyday to keep it that way.

-Jennie Nawrocki