I can’t explain my mind. Though several people try. However my mind and people mix all the time. I am not making excuses for it because that has how it has always been. On the other hand it creates conflict within me that can mess a whole bunch of stuff. Now that it is an open book it is more easily influenced than ever has been before. Explain this explain that, or that is not what you meant I am told, this is what you meant. Look I am all up for interpretation and improving myself, but sometimes I have to say this what I meant and that is all.