All or nothing

I knew it

But did I believe it

Completely as

Each moment

I dwindle down

To nothing

-Jennie Nawrocki

Opposites with opposition

Oh the battles

Who’s philosophy is right?

So different but so alike

Devoted Buddhist

Devoted Evangelical

Devoted Judeo Christian

Though we love our mom

And very adventurous and creative

We became

Body types too

Short versus tall

Toothpick versus curved

Cover everything

Or show everything

So alike but so different

How do we ever get along

Bike rides and hikes

Beach going bbqs

Spa days

And movies and plays

But that news

We only discuss

With agreements

On opposite days

Remembering

We love each other

Always

-Jennie Nawrocki

We have to be on the same page

You hate when I say I love you and you don’t love me

And I hate it when you say I love you and I don’t love you

•saying romantic love only•

Yet I get fooled into thinking a guy loves me but really doesn’t. So many 💔😭 that trust is an issue now.

Then some past man who I have said doesn’t have my permission to be my boyfriend, fiancé or husband and never calls or writes directly says he loves me and wants to be with me. Huh!

Double standard hypocrites.

Respect my no to Nick Kappes.

Understand my 🤬 towards Nick Kappes is the same as your 🤬 of me having loved Darren King.

I realize you don’t care about me but you certainly did care when I said I loved Paul Meany and wanted him to be my husband.

Ridiculous! No! Because I was fooled into believing it and my brother even betted on me going crazy for finding out I wasn’t the one getting married.

It has to 🛑!

I won’t tell you who to date or love and you don’t tell me who to date or love. Or build me up to love someone who will break my heart💔.

Maybe if the fooling, revenge acts and F Yous given to Jennie Nawrocki we wouldn’t be in this mess of loving someone who doesn’t reciprocate that love.

Truce? deal?

From now on no implied thoughts or actions that Nick Kappes wants Jennie Nawrocki romantic love.

and Jennie Nawrocki will find another guy if any that will love Jennie Nawrocki romantically and Jennie Nawrocki returns that and you will leave him alone.

Yes this is an inappropriate place to write this but YOU WONT DIRECT MESSAGE OR TALK TO ME.

this is my diplomatic response instead of YELLING I SAID NO NICK KAPPES every so often.

-Jennie Nawrocki

My sister gave me this as a Christmas present. Many say I am too pessimistic but I say I tell it as those tell me.

Others say you control your life you make your own choices or follow Gods plan, God knows your true path. All I know is that when I keep hearing something bad is going to happen to Jennie Nawrocki by a certain date and it does my life is not my choice. I remember the first time I heard my brother “maybe we should take your computer away” a little more than a year later I had to sell my computer and haven’t owned one since and today a breeder descendant of that same brother said “if it wasn’t for my sister I would take her out.” So far all my social media today has covered that sister. If that isn’t clear enough, how bout this: hearing someone say no more Christmas movies for you and soon I lost my cable, in December.

Neither one of those scenarios was Jennie Nawrocki’s choice.

Jennie Nawrocki loves Christmas and still does. My Christmas tree 🎄 lights are the only light in the room as Jennie Nawrocki writes this.

I watch romantic movies and comedies for one reason most of the time they have good endings. So today, I am going to say I am grateful for happy endings. There are positive and I like them so yes Jennie Nawrocki watches them to stay positive and remind herself that some times lives including Jennie Nawrocki’s life can be well.

Especially when someone takes your cable.

So Jennie Nawrocki stopped journaling and talking about the joys in Jennie Nawrocki’s world because she knew the second a good event occurred in Jennie Nawrocki’s life it turned bad. So for all those who say Jennie Nawrocki makes Jennie Nawrocki’s own choices and Jennie Nawrocki’s life isn’t controlled. Jennie Nawrocki is going to do an experiment. Jennie Nawrocki is going to complete the daily grateful activities in this Grateful calendar 📆 and will note each time a good event or gratitude turns bad and is permanently negative now since Jennie Nawrocki wrote she was grateful for someone’s support or world event such as good movie endings.

We will see who controls Jennie Nawrocki.

-Jennie Nawrocki

Why?

You don’t like the same

I don’t like the same

But yet here we are

You had different

I had the same

And the same question

is asked

Why?

Heartbroken 💔

Scammed😒

Fooled😘

Disappointed 😢

Nothing👻

What the hell?

How do I get off this

Hamster wheel

Fishbowl

Craziness?

-Jennie Nawrocki

Years ago I thought I was seeing a guy online and fell in love with him only to find out years later it was all a joke.

Now I have been online again and chatted with some men (neither one of these men is Nick Kappes) and yet again my direct communication has become non existent.

I have no way of talking to them directly, the times we did shortly message each other seemed public rather than private and it was very short lived and haven’t had a direct message since.

However it seems if I don’t respond on social media or choose one over the other each gets hurt.

Though one knows I call him Phinaes that I love him.

Then there is this other story the one where I am told I have no future and am an irrelevant evil ghost, to say it nicely.

So do I believe one of these men returns their love for me when we don’t speak and haven’t direct messaged each other in months or years?

Or?

My heart has been broken my mind is fried and I am feeling controlled.

How am I to know when to trust what I read or hear?

The weird other conundrum is they are completely opposites and appeal to different parts of my personality, because we all know Jennie isn’t a stereotype this or that Jennie is Jennie and is flexible maybe more figuratively than literally these days and versatile in experiences and wants.

So what would you do think neither one is serious or live in a matrix or dream type of scenario, that your family says doesn’t exist and neither one of them loved me in the first place.

Oh and on top of it I made lots of mistakes and fumbles this week that I am wondering if I broke the camels back or are dealbreakers?

To the reader the choice seems obvious to my heart and gullible side not so much.

And to be cheesy I will say this: I don’t want to be lonely.

-Jennie Nawrocki

Somehow the letters cc appeared on this post Jennie Nawrocki did not write them it was hacked by the people who want no future for Jennie Nawrocki.

You haven’t seen the best

Unless you

Have done your best

Self confidence

With humility

Is

The best

-Jennie Nawrocki

A 🌹 doesn’t sound as sweet with any other name.

The Divine Miss M

Has stayed true

For decades

She honors our country

With dedication

And moral value

That focuses on human rights

Rather than hocus pocus

Each plant and park

She saved

Bended with the wind beneath

The wings of the mandarin duck

And many other forest natives

Saying Thank You Dolly

You smell as sweet as a 🌹

-Jennie Nawrocki

Without overactiving

Certainly no drama

Intwined in the relationship

Stealth strategies

If any

Progress the conversation

So much so

Ostentation depression

Loathing and jealousy

Are never found

Just simple exchanges

Turning dialogues

Into positives

So you only think

Hey that woman

Is great to talk with

So humble

When is the next

Party with her

-Jennie Nawrocki

You is such a broad term.

It can be singular

Or plural

So many meanings

You said: I was awful

Is a different person from

You said: I love you

The only way to know

Is context and setting

So if unsure

Ask who was meant

When you was said

-Jennie Nawrocki