Close But No Cigar


My senior year in high school in the last few days everyone signing year books passing them around between to moments wear teachers allow. My high school teachers were so diligent I don’t remember a class we could just sign yearbooks even in our senior year. The reason I say that is because for some reason nobody had time to sign mine. Along with that most of the yearbooks I signed were at the end or during passing. I remember by one girl who I had basically every class with and eaten lunch (mostly nachos) asked me to sign her book but when I asked her to sign mine in return she refused and told the other friends in the group I had spent most of the four years with I would never sign her book. In fact I barely had anybody sign my yearbook. Mostly empty pages of photo and memories I only seen or heard, never the participant. Little did I know this would be the future of Jennie Nawrocki.

Close but no cigar must have come from the origin of giving men cigars after some sort of winning spree. They strive and worked for something they never achieved because they never got the cigar. Well that is what my New York experience has been. Some may have called it bitter sweet but really I can’t recall too many good days.

It started with you can never work in New York but by the looks of it I can’t work in any other city either. I think that because when I moved to New York July 1st 2014 it took three months benforce I was offered a part time minimum wage job. After working successfully as a teacher for 13 years. I a experienced leader with a masters degree who had never been fired from a job was unable to find work in New York. It wasn’t bad luck it was purposeful sabotage. How I know because it started before I moved to China I worked at Macy’s and in order not to pay the high prices of parking I took the bus into the downtown area. Well I heard they were going to stop the one bus in my area past a certain time. So I would have to pay the high prices of parking or walk almost a mile home around midnight or quit my job. But I got another job in China but this was not the only time this happened recently I went to a job the bus schedule said what the last stop was and I waited and it never showed. I ended up having to take a cab every night wasting my money. But that is okay you see according to social media because if you read about the wall funding it is really a story about not letting me have a job or career or any extra money at all and if you give me money or a job they will take your funding too. How do I know this because I have people walking by me on the street whispering to screaming take Jennie Nawrocki’s money. I am assuming that is also why you hear contradictory stories saying the wall has already been built and is being built. Remember the story above I could be a part of the group write in their year books but I don’t get the same consideration in return. Living in New York has been a take take take atmosphere and nothing in return but as you can see those things started a long time ago in Seattle where I used to live. No I would say from the years 1994-2004 was the best decade of my life and most of it was glorious. Before that to as I was never taken into the principals office for bad behavior and I also went from remedial classes through hard work and studying.

On a whole I am not a bad person, I will say that I can be snappy and ****hy to those who sabotage me or won’t sign my yearbook when I signed theirs. But I don’t think that deserves a worldwide movement to eliminate hate and fear from their lives. If you don’t understand the word play and the hidden meanings of social media right now let me give a lesson Jennifer (fear) Nawrocki (aey = hate). I don’t hit or hurt people if you say I did or have a video of it I deserve to be able to see it.

At one point people and or a band told people I was a stalker. To get you to hate me. I will ask how can I be a stalker if I only went to concerts and spoke after the show when allowed. Most of the time I didn’t even ask for pictures with them. I also wanted send them something nice I made for them or just a present. Again I didn’t have their home address or work address but I sent it to a place a business a coffee shop one of their family owned they mentioned a lot on twitter and blogs. Even Ellen DeGeneres allows fans to send her items she has a whole room dedicated to these gifts. Let me ask you what is more creepy sending items to someone’s home or their place of business? I chose business. Also if I went to their home town either for a concert or small touristy trip I wrote specifically stating if you don’t want to be seen hide yourself I am visiting these places today. What stalker tells you what places they are going to visit and gives the opportunity for the person to stay far away from where they will be. No stalker ever says that which is why Jennie Nawrocki isn’t a stalker. In addition, the only schedules I knew and memorized and checked up upon were my paraeducators inside my classroom of which I was the lead teacher. Once out of school and my classroom what they did was their business to tell me if they so desired.

However I feel the exact opposite, I know I have been followed and it has been reported what I do and my schedule in the future and if somebody is watching, listening to it or directing it doesn’t like it then it is changed or sabotaged completely just like getting a job with a decent wage has gone ridiculously nuts to the point I have had so many unsuccessful jobs where even they eventually take my money rather than me getting paid like they promised. I can’t hold a bank account because I am being held responsible for a bogus bitcoin transaction that even the police said was a scam. What I also found out is that my phone has been hacked by at least 10 different computers. My privacy is non-existent. So when I read on more than one occasion she has been putting vodka in her water bottle. People you know I live alone have no friends and only was invited to dinner to someone’s house in the last two months and that is since I moved to New York in the summer of 2014. Furthermore I also haven’t stepped foot in a liquor since 2012 if not earlier. I have more of a craving for chocolate than I ever did for alcohol. In fact when I taught at middle school for over 11 years my fridge was stock with milk and my cupboards with Carnation Instant Breakfast Chocolate flavor and daily I would fill that red solo cup with milk and chocolate.

This my readers is just the beginning of my story it is a long one and feels so good to write about I will tell you more about that tomorrow. Though for now I promised by the end of the day I would post Jennie Nawrocki’s state of the union. We just made the quarter mark or halfway. I can’t know until more is written. Bare with me it has been a long while since I wrote and a person who wrote almost 3 times a day to never writing for 4 years has a lot to catch you up on.

-Jennie Nawrocki

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