Years ago I thought I was seeing a guy online and fell in love with him only to find out years later it was all a joke.

Now I have been online again and chatted with some men (neither one of these men is Nick Kappes) and yet again my direct communication has become non existent.

I have no way of talking to them directly, the times we did shortly message each other seemed public rather than private and it was very short lived and haven’t had a direct message since.

However it seems if I don’t respond on social media or choose one over the other each gets hurt.

Though one knows I call him Phinaes that I love him.

Then there is this other story the one where I am told I have no future and am an irrelevant evil ghost, to say it nicely.

So do I believe one of these men returns their love for me when we don’t speak and haven’t direct messaged each other in months or years?


My heart has been broken my mind is fried and I am feeling controlled.

How am I to know when to trust what I read or hear?

The weird other conundrum is they are completely opposites and appeal to different parts of my personality, because we all know Jennie isn’t a stereotype this or that Jennie is Jennie and is flexible maybe more figuratively than literally these days and versatile in experiences and wants.

So what would you do think neither one is serious or live in a matrix or dream type of scenario, that your family says doesn’t exist and neither one of them loved me in the first place.

Oh and on top of it I made lots of mistakes and fumbles this week that I am wondering if I broke the camels back or are dealbreakers?

To the reader the choice seems obvious to my heart and gullible side not so much.

And to be cheesy I will say this: I don’t want to be lonely.

-Jennie Nawrocki

Somehow the letters cc appeared on this post Jennie Nawrocki did not write them it was hacked by the people who want no future for Jennie Nawrocki.

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