I can’t believe it
My future yesterday
Does not seem the same today
So long I wanted
Self sufficiency
I didn’t want
To be controlled
Now I am alone
And those
At the next table
Tell me
Canceled
I am nothing
Irrelevant
But what about
A husband
A house
A career
Then she sees
Herself in the future
The worst possible way
Sitting alone
In a restaurant
With a bad wig
Not imagining
Life as a old couple
But poor and alone
That ain’t a goal
It just sadness
I don’t even want
Nursing home aides
To care for me
alone leave me alone
Ugh!
Where do you want to retire?
Why does the security
Of the future
Through self-sufficiently
Seem so rewarding
There is no one there
No one
Ugh
I need to re think this
-Jennie Nawrocki