You had a way with words

Singing them in song

They traveled as a Phoenix flew

And achieved touchdowns for sentimental journeys

The rivers of melody

Were calm to cautious

Navigating each experience

Some fumbles but many successes

You found your supports

Adding to your family

Bringing us along every era

Even in the afterlife of poetic lyrics

You grow with each step

Never wobbling

Pulling yourself together stronger

Moving forward

Into the next stanza

And the chorus that emphasizes this moment

Defining your heart

Focused on what’s important

That those around you

Need you as much as you need them

Even if the next era is unimaginable

Your words will guide you as they always have

Speak for those who don’t know how to express themselves

With such music

It is healthy without too many tears

For emotional rollercoasters maybe be fast

But a song reverberates and continues just as the story does

So timeless but yet so telling

Of that world you entered

When you decided on the next tributary or even road

So continue you know what’s right

You sensed it all along

-Jennie Nawrocki

I realize you don’t know what to do.

You feel betrayed.

Heart has been broken.

I have told you everything.

Even the bad parts known.

Maybe it doesn’t make them better but at least there were no secrets.

I take responsibility for all I have known to be bad.

I apologize and have worked on mending the bad.

However I cannot want what I don’t desire and if I don’t see it or imagine it isn’t there it was probably something I didn’t want in the first place.

If it is something egregious and bad my fear and anger of it has kept me away.

However, if I loved it and wanted it, happiness only comes from thinking about it.

So envision what makes you calm and elated that is what you need.

-Jennie Nawrocki

I am slowing down my social media interactions.

Decided that it was the same story.

No new chapters.

You don’t want the same and I don’t want it either.

I need progress.

But I only descend deeper into hell.

I guess that is progress for those that want me there but for me it is everything I fight.

If I can’t live positive then something has to change.

So I thought social media would be good.

If it seems different I might return but why return somewhere negative.

To make positive but how?

-Jennie Nawrocki

The images I have seen

Astronomically scary

I am just as terrified of them as you

I lost so much sleep the week

Worrying about what I have seen

Not once have I said I liked that except for two.

And that wasn’t no scene

It was normal but man I hope that blond guy was onyx.

And the second was just being with Angel.

Otherwise that has been ruined also.

All I am saying is it has been a horrible week filled with horrible images.

You can say I had 98 bad images and two good if it was Onyx or Angel.

Too many nightmares.

-Jennie Nawrocki

All this time

Everything I have written to you days, weeks, month and years of writing

I realized something.

I am horrible on follow through with relationships.

I know how to get them started

I definitely know how to end them

But the inbetween

The daily checking is difficult

How do you keep it uplifting?

How do you maintain that connection that brought you together

And most importantly how in the world do you manage more than 20 friends and family at a time.

For awhile it seems I was always on the phone

Calls, emails, texts social media accounts, the news

How do you keep up with it?

I should know this right?

But I really don’t.

I understand when I hear people say you have 5 or 10 minutes but what do you do in a crisis?

This is so complicated?

Hence why social correspondence is mostly done at night right?

But how?

I say all the time maintain those relationships to keep our world strong but how?

More to come, I am on the path, to road to finding out how to maintain relationships.

If you have any ideas, let me know!

-Jennie Nawrocki

The Oscars are tonight

It is my Super Bowl

The rounding out of the previous year.

Every award has been given out

Every trophy has been raised in celebration

The year 2023 is only a memory after this.

Just retelling of stories past unless a sequel then maybe not so much.

But I will say this if we all played our part whoever is on that stage tonight obviously was chosen for a reason

Was your part any less HELL NO.

Believe me the butterfly effect is true and we are all in this together they were just the squeaky wheel this year.

You all were excellent but unfortunately some of those who had it harder than others.

May not get the appreciation they deserve so today I am honoring you, the ones who need the awards but never were noticed.

My friends never forget you are valued.

-Jennie Nawrocki

All I have to say is:

Life is better off if you just start treating people with respect.

Goodness gracious I can’t believe March Madness is here.

Whatever bracket you have go Knicks all the way 😂

-Jennie Nawrocki

I have said some things I shouldn’t

I have confused goodbye with hello

I have confused one person with another person

I haven’t understood who was with me but couldn’t be because the were defending me from afar

I definitely don’t understand who are all the voices in my head

I definitely hate how when you ask a question I respond to one layer of it and really you are asking something else.

What are we doing? Why so much confusion?

I entered a world where I don’t speak the language never really spoke the language and now am expected to understand

I also brought lots of emotional baggage and untrust

How do I interact now?

-Jennie Nawrocki

I don’t know about you

But power should be checked

And accountable

If it isn’t why do you accept it?

Are you unknowledgeable?

Are you just a follower?

Do you not care about your opinion?

Did you do the research?

What is it?

Are you scared?

Granted some people make good decisions?

Some people make bad decisions?

Some make decisions based on intimidation?

Me if I can’t ask or question?

Or even disagree.

I don’t trust.

-Jennie Nawrocki

Love isn’t fickle

Love is reliable

Love isn’t wishy washy

Love is steady

Love isn’t interchangeable

Love is growing

Love isn’t a facade

Love is revealing

Love isn’t conditional

Love is remaining

Love isn’t easy

Love is stress free

Love isn’t demeaning

Love is respectful

Love isn’t one day

Love is all days

-Jennie Nawrocki