Had a nightmare agonizing over giving a note saying I apologize for saying the whole story correctly, about what I can’t remember. So I thought the worst about what I did not properly say at first. It could be anything but I know you would think the worst of me afterwards.

The talk shows already know and have said Freaky Friday occurred and I have been kicked off labeled as inept and not a winner. Before it was at least one show that was sympathetic now the trifecta of the worst of the worst has occurred.

When you know that turning point in your life that the last gleam of hope has been extinguished this was that week.

Bye 👋 it is only further down the drain from here in Guantanamo Bays solitary confinement or worse.

I know some of you are thinking she is being overly dramatic and milking the situation but I am serious and just made a whole bunch of humans laugh just like when they saw my nightmare, to them it was the ultimate dream that they had been waiting for.

This is their confirmation and evidence of the punishment they have had for me from the beginning and others who had just heard.

It is easier to lose respect than gain respect.

-Jennie Nawrocki

You have seen me go through all the stages of grief.

I miss my past life.

I miss my family and friends.

I miss being able to talk freely.

I miss my old career.

I miss my independence.

I don’t know how to accept such nothingness.

I don’t know how to accept a world of lies and gaslighting.

I don’t know how to accept I can’t talk about my feelings or myself anymore.

I don’t know how to accept other humans I don’t know or could care less about me who are happily in my head and control of my body.

I don’t know how to accept this extremely toxic political climate.

I am not this or that person and humans are upset about that.

I am not as happy and people are upset at that.

I am not a human shield.

I am not traveling like I used to.

I am not understanding how I could be steady now.

-Jennie Nawrocki

Lent is over

Christ has risen

I ate salad and tons of candy

Balances it out don’t ya think?

Either way

Happy Easter

And our next major holiday isn’t until Memorial Day.

We remembered Jesus because he died for our sins.

We remember soldiers because they died protecting our freedom.

The least we can do is say thanks!

There is so much to be thankful for.

-Jennie Nawrocki

I grew up with this poetry

Paling in comparison

But still a dream

That one day I could write about a tree

That would be such a commotion

That a simple team

Within every degree

Would have the passion

Of wind and a sunbeam

In endless glory

Bring motion

To beauty billowing through its seam

-Jennie Nawrocki

My heart at times seems frozen or black.

My questions may seem blunt or to the point.

I may give lots of background or many explanations before I get to the meaning of the story.

I may overuse small talk.

I may ask for the triggers or motivation.

I may simply ask why.

Or want to see the data.

Someone once said never jump to conclusions or assume.

Never judge for you haven’t walked in their shoes.

I may have been bitten and maybe twice shy regardless what that means.

And may not divulge my heart easily.

I may have stepped away from social media.

However and extremely importantly I still believe that we should live as a community that relies on each other.

Divided is unstable.

So become strong become resilient but always stand by your number 1, wingman, sidekick, Lenny and Squiggy, partner, or teammate.

Even if you don’t have beers together.

-Jennie Nawrocki

They say it is all about the timing

How you proceed

How you stall

How you sustain

Do you react faster than a snake

Or slower than a snail

Procrastination is not good timing

Neither is not knowing the room

Be aware but be relaxed and ready

For you never know when

Your time is called

Unless you are observant in all the right places

-Jennie Nawrocki

It roars like a lion

So mad with winter

Wind, rains leave the harsh cold behind

Like a person shedding their outerwear

It just keeps forging barriers

To grow budding flowers and leaves

Soon to make canopies of shade

Enriching our world with fragrances

We soon forget about staying inside from the elements

To flourish and gather together in the basque of the sun

Those warm rays of solar power

Envelope our soul

That we just say Ahh!

We missed you so spring

-Jennie Nawrocki

Your going

Your going thinking one thing

You keep going

All is well

You continue

You go

You proceed

Everything seems normal

Then just at the end

The extra request

A different person

A new stipulation

But your still racing with the same people and thought in mind

Not enough time to stop momentum or movement

Destruction and Damage

What just happened it was going well

At least you thought

Why do you think I don’t trust?

Why do you think I don’t respect?

Checked that was not the was it was before, made sure everything good

You change the terms and conditions at the last second every single time.

Then you say it was magic and you loved it, yeah because you scammed and made a fool of me.

Why do you think I don’t trust?

Why do you think I don’t respect?

Why do you think I say no to you all the time?

Why do you think I don’t report for work?

No trust, no respect who loves in this way and says it is what it is.

-Jennie Nawrocki

Resting bitch face

Or

Partners with every person I see

Which

Toxic

Or

Good to have around

Which

Inability

Or

Deserves an award

Which

Doesn’t know the room

Or

Understands the room

Which

Call you an bastard

Or

Call you Sexy

Which

Mean

Or

Silly and funny

Which

Stupid

Or

Knows what she is talking about

Which

Crazy

Or

Normal

You can’t have both all the time especially when a whole room of women and men claims your their friendemny and spouse simultaneously.

More attracted to ?

Stacy or Darren

Alea or Zack

Amy or Wyeth

Julie or Alex

Stephanie or Brandon

Joanna or Josh

Kate or Michael

Julia or Brad

Meryl or Tom

Ellen or Jimmy

Choose you can’t be both, if we are then that is one dysfunctional relationship that needs to be changed.

-Jennie Nawrocki