This time of year the spooks and howls take over.

Scary mazes and haunted houses abound

Tales of horror fill the ears

Parties are abundant with masks

Black cats kept home out of fear

Hospital’s mayhem

Police overworked

Candy everywhere

Whether you live in Salem

Or watch from another country

Know sometimes the greatest fear

Is only a nightmare.

-Jennie Nawrocki

When it is an easy yes

When thinking occurred?

It was that fast

Maybe even muscle memory

Rote reaction

Natural intuition

Does it hurt someone?

No.

Do I like it?

Yes.

Does it hurt me negatively?

No.

Then clear that path

Make it your career

If it isn’t already

– Jennie Nawrocki

Every once

In awhile

A invitation

Arrives

You must take it

Bad or good

For if not

The repercussions

Are much worse

So make the best

Of it

You never know

It could lead

To options

You never thought

Would occur

-Jennie Nawrocki

The first year alone

Was hopeful

As was the second

Then the third was

Hospitals and crying

Next six was just

Crying with hope smashed

Again and again

Until crying was no more

The next years of being alone

Listening to yelling

Hurting and internal crying

And life leaving me behind

I know.

-Jennie Nawrocki

Found myself

Wondering

Reflecting

I like to be busy

I like creating

I like exploring

I like human connection

So why the hell

Am I sitting here

Alone

-Jennie Nawrocki

Trepidatious

Exciting anticipation

Will it go bad?

Will it go well?

How’s my attitude?

How’s their attitude?

Goals should align

Or at least not conflict

It’s big time

After pandemic slowdown

Pace yourself

Everything in moderation

But if you have the opportunity

Take it

Procrastinating

And excuses

Aren’t allowed

Be ready

Be quick

Be efficient

Be respectful

Don’t forget

To be thankful

-Jennie Nawrocki

Thank you for recognition

Thank you for quotes

Thank you for meets

Thank you for the greets

Thank you for the head nods

Thank you for the feye contact

Thank you for the sign language

Thank you for the colors

Thank you for my family

Thank you friends staying so long

Thank you for the travel

Thank you for the food

Thank you for believing in me

Thank you for the movies, shows, songs and words.

Thank you for listening

Thank you for reading

Thank you for everything

-Jennie Nawrocki

Years I have been writing posts and years others have said when are you going to write about something other then sadness and grief? When are you going to believe you are in control of your own destiny?

Still here nothing has changed still the same person, same problems, and same lifestyle.

I am so far in quicksand or Guantanamo Bay that I don’t know what I could grab onto to get out. What do I do?

Said my affirmations, said my prayers, talked with my family, friends and nothing is budging.

Move Jennie Move but no real estate person will return my inquiries, no new job offers unless they are controlled by the previous job.

I can’t move, but move, then stop following me every where I go. I know I certainly don’t follow you. Give me my freedom. I deserve freedom. Jennie Nawrocki deserves freedom.

-Jennie Nawrocki

It was always someone else

Someone else won

Someone else got invited

Someone else got the apartment

Someone else they were talking to

Then why are you

So surprised

To hear me say

Not me.

-Jennie Nawrocki

Another year

Was it bad?

Was it good?

Will it be bad?

Will it be good?

Fresh books

Pencils and pens

Paper so crisp

Smells of the forest

Lunches to pack

Friends to meet

Starting with that A

It’s all new so study

Be respectful

And most of all listen

Remember those notes too

For knowledge

Is power

And you have a

Front row seat

Learn

Learn

Learn

And you will

Never need to brag

-Jennie Nawrocki