I am slowing down my social media interactions.

Decided that it was the same story.

No new chapters.

You don’t want the same and I don’t want it either.

I need progress.

But I only descend deeper into hell.

I guess that is progress for those that want me there but for me it is everything I fight.

If I can’t live positive then something has to change.

So I thought social media would be good.

If it seems different I might return but why return somewhere negative.

To make positive but how?

-Jennie Nawrocki

The images I have seen

Astronomically scary

I am just as terrified of them as you

I lost so much sleep the week

Worrying about what I have seen

Not once have I said I liked that except for two.

And that wasn’t no scene

It was normal but man I hope that blond guy was onyx.

And the second was just being with Angel.

Otherwise that has been ruined also.

All I am saying is it has been a horrible week filled with horrible images.

You can say I had 98 bad images and two good if it was Onyx or Angel.

Too many nightmares.

-Jennie Nawrocki

All this time

Everything I have written to you days, weeks, month and years of writing

I realized something.

I am horrible on follow through with relationships.

I know how to get them started

I definitely know how to end them

But the inbetween

The daily checking is difficult

How do you keep it uplifting?

How do you maintain that connection that brought you together

And most importantly how in the world do you manage more than 20 friends and family at a time.

For awhile it seems I was always on the phone

Calls, emails, texts social media accounts, the news

How do you keep up with it?

I should know this right?

But I really don’t.

I understand when I hear people say you have 5 or 10 minutes but what do you do in a crisis?

This is so complicated?

Hence why social correspondence is mostly done at night right?

But how?

I say all the time maintain those relationships to keep our world strong but how?

More to come, I am on the path, to road to finding out how to maintain relationships.

If you have any ideas, let me know!

-Jennie Nawrocki

The Oscars are tonight

It is my Super Bowl

The rounding out of the previous year.

Every award has been given out

Every trophy has been raised in celebration

The year 2023 is only a memory after this.

Just retelling of stories past unless a sequel then maybe not so much.

But I will say this if we all played our part whoever is on that stage tonight obviously was chosen for a reason

Was your part any less HELL NO.

Believe me the butterfly effect is true and we are all in this together they were just the squeaky wheel this year.

You all were excellent but unfortunately some of those who had it harder than others.

May not get the appreciation they deserve so today I am honoring you, the ones who need the awards but never were noticed.

My friends never forget you are valued.

-Jennie Nawrocki

All I have to say is:

Life is better off if you just start treating people with respect.

Goodness gracious I can’t believe March Madness is here.

Whatever bracket you have go Knicks all the way 😂

-Jennie Nawrocki

I have said some things I shouldn’t

I have confused goodbye with hello

I have confused one person with another person

I haven’t understood who was with me but couldn’t be because the were defending me from afar

I definitely don’t understand who are all the voices in my head

I definitely hate how when you ask a question I respond to one layer of it and really you are asking something else.

What are we doing? Why so much confusion?

I entered a world where I don’t speak the language never really spoke the language and now am expected to understand

I also brought lots of emotional baggage and untrust

How do I interact now?

-Jennie Nawrocki

I don’t know about you

But power should be checked

And accountable

If it isn’t why do you accept it?

Are you unknowledgeable?

Are you just a follower?

Do you not care about your opinion?

Did you do the research?

What is it?

Are you scared?

Granted some people make good decisions?

Some people make bad decisions?

Some make decisions based on intimidation?

Me if I can’t ask or question?

Or even disagree.

I don’t trust.

-Jennie Nawrocki

Love isn’t fickle

Love is reliable

Love isn’t wishy washy

Love is steady

Love isn’t interchangeable

Love is growing

Love isn’t a facade

Love is revealing

Love isn’t conditional

Love is remaining

Love isn’t easy

Love is stress free

Love isn’t demeaning

Love is respectful

Love isn’t one day

Love is all days

-Jennie Nawrocki

One word

One thought

One idea

Again

Again

Again

Not stopping

Again

Again again

Please stop

Again again

Again

Goodness gracious

Some one

Get me off this thought.

-Jennie Nawrocki

Y’all went against each other,

Y’all wanted fame fortune and power.

Y’all got greedy and said that’s mine, that’s mine That’s mine over and over again.

Y’all have a small team and only let others in if they do your bidding.

Y’all use each other as human shields.

Y’all only include those who are loyal everybody else suffers.

Y’all have decided to spin and twist the story til it is yours.

Y’all ain’t have that Pollyanna positive attitude.

Y’all are insensitive to anyone else accept your team.

Y’all believe more in punishment and consequences rather than reform.

Y’all don’t believe in second chances so you lie about your mistakes.

Y’all went into this for one purpose but y’all are still fighting.

Y’all have created something intolerable because you have become intolerable.

Y’all don’t know the difference between toxic and unknowledgeable or out of sorts.

Y’all just forgot how to be.

Y’all having to guard and protect for safety rather than respecting others time, space and property.

Y’all I feel sorry for you.

-Jennie Nawrocki