You have seen me go through all the stages of grief.

I miss my past life.

I miss my family and friends.

I miss being able to talk freely.

I miss my old career.

I miss my independence.

I don’t know how to accept such nothingness.

I don’t know how to accept a world of lies and gaslighting.

I don’t know how to accept I can’t talk about my feelings or myself anymore.

I don’t know how to accept other humans I don’t know or could care less about me who are happily in my head and control of my body.

I don’t know how to accept this extremely toxic political climate.

I am not this or that person and humans are upset about that.

I am not as happy and people are upset at that.

I am not a human shield.

I am not traveling like I used to.

I am not understanding how I could be steady now.

-Jennie Nawrocki