Feeling like my whole life has been public for years I don’t mind writing this personal experience because I don’t feel you have heard my perspective or my side of the story.

There is no denying that humans use me as a shield to cover themselves, pretending to me when they weren’t. Often projecting their narrative of what they want me to be rather than letting me speak or even be in the room when they are having the conversation.

I have a question though!

If you wait until you are in total control and never speak or write to me for years even when written to and called because talking to me would be seen as an accomplice, an enabler, a contributor, and active participant. Then all of a sudden call me and say hey how have you been as if nothing happened.

Who is the toxic one?

When you don’t know what has happened in their lives, missing births of babies, graduations even deaths after you have given your phone number, email and all social media locations because I only was given a mirror. Then they say they are surprised that I didn’t know.

Who is the toxic one?

When you say I am still Jennie that they used to be proud of and compliment regularly. They get upset.

Who is the toxic one?

When they want to forget you never were in their lives deleting or changing all conversations and pictures even the ones where they said they loved you and thought you were the best. Then tell you it never happened you were never a friend or even family.

Who is the toxic one?

When you can’t even make dinner for someone for their birthday.

Who is the toxic one?

When you are told this person loves you. You will meet and marry and never have. Turns out they weren’t talking to you just relaying a relatives or another’s persons story. Then say you were married they just hated you the whole time and wanted to screw with you.

Who is the toxic one?

Listening is important but when someone says F*** your feelings. To the point where there are no rules as long as Jennie Nawrocki doesn’t win.

Jennie Nawrocki isn’t the toxic one.

-Jennie Nawrocki

Y’all think I don’t know

Y’all think I am stupid

Y’all think I am insane

Y’all think I am ready to blow

When really I just want friends in a world that respects me.

Y’all say I can win

Y’all say I am a liar

Y’all say I am a b*****

Y’all say I am a c***

When really I just want friends in a world that respects me

Before I was patient

Before I was empathetic

Before I was hard working

Before I was trustworthy

When really I just want friends in a world that respects me

I am patient

I am empathetic

I am hard working

I am trust worthy

When really I just want friends in a world that respects me

Respects me

Respects me

Will you like me?

-Jennie Nawrocki

Somehow she was there

Somehow she furthered my education

Somehow she bought me things I needed

Somehow there was always food on the table

Somehow there was an implied or spoken I believe in you

Somehow we always got our present even if two or three years later

Somehow she made things better

Those somehows were always within the limits of the law

Because somehow she maintained the law

Because if you lied it was always a worse punishment

Regardless of how, I still love you mom

-Jennie Nawrocki

There is much controversy over the fact whether or not teachers can tell whether or not they are gay or lesbian.

I can’t remember a teacher that didn’t have a picture of their family somewhere in their room. Or would say I am going home to my husband and wife and so many kids.

We knew if they were straight and we knew when they were gay. We also knew if they had kids.

When Ellen DeGeneres was married she being a nationally syndicated openly lesbian daytimes talk show host.

She had children all the time on her show and watching her show because it was a daytime show. No bad effects.

Who is spreading this nonsense has to be a Putin or Sharia Law helper.

Or

They just don’t want to admit they are prejudiced and haven’t read my thoughts on the fact you can’t convert one way or the other.

What matters in school is a respectful environment, if you can’t handle that, I am afraid for your coworkers now and the hostile environment you create.

-Jennie Nawrocki