My goodness i somehow made it through April.

or did I?

I don’t know what really happened

All I know is I feel the same about people as I did when the month began.

Be well

Be there for someone

You never know when it is needed

-Jennie Nawrocki

You have heard it with addiction

You have heard it with religion

Why on earth would you believe it with conversion?

People change religions

Not because they have to because it fulfills a purpose.

They found what they were missing they found what they needed.

People become addicted because they self medicate

Hide from what issues they have

Some say they are just replacing behaviors when sober

Some say they have genetic dispositions to need the chemical imbalance

But most people you talk with who have recovered from addiction say no one I mean no one can change their behavior but them

It comes from within not for someone else but within.

So you may think you are the one to change them no you weren’t

They found their reason their need their want to live without chemical dependency

Some say they find God afterwards, maybe they did get religious or maybe they didn’t

Not everyone who is sober from addiction finds God.

What it was is something deep inside they wanted, they needed

They found who they are

Not every Christian believes in God the same way which is why we have how many religions and denominations?

Even then say they are this or that but not devoted

It is what they want they needed.

Why in the world would you think the same of those who are transgender or gay?

There is no one forcing anyone to be gay.

No one encouraging them to change gender or to love the same gender.

They needed, they wanted it, they were born that way.

There is no conversion there is only someone deciding this is me.

Some know right when born some know later in life.

Believe me if we all knew right from the beginning we wouldn’t need therapy to find ourselves

Again therapist cannot stop addiction, they know what we have all known.

A person changes because they want to not because they were influenced.

The behavior may change with peers but the person inside doesn’t they always revert to their true selves, if they don’t know who that is yet.

So the less you tell someone what to be the less issues you will have

Believe me, why do you think a therapist asks questions?

Not to force someone but to have them find themselves.

Stop telling and start asking without judgement?

Be the listener.

Conflict always lessens when someone feels heard.

Listen

-Jennie Nawrocki

You had a way with words

Singing them in song

They traveled as a Phoenix flew

And achieved touchdowns for sentimental journeys

The rivers of melody

Were calm to cautious

Navigating each experience

Some fumbles but many successes

You found your supports

Adding to your family

Bringing us along every era

Even in the afterlife of poetic lyrics

You grow with each step

Never wobbling

Pulling yourself together stronger

Moving forward

Into the next stanza

And the chorus that emphasizes this moment

Defining your heart

Focused on what’s important

That those around you

Need you as much as you need them

Even if the next era is unimaginable

Your words will guide you as they always have

Speak for those who don’t know how to express themselves

With such music

It is healthy without too many tears

For emotional rollercoasters maybe be fast

But a song reverberates and continues just as the story does

So timeless but yet so telling

Of that world you entered

When you decided on the next tributary or even road

So continue you know what’s right

You sensed it all along

-Jennie Nawrocki

I realize you don’t know what to do.

You feel betrayed.

Heart has been broken.

I have told you everything.

Even the bad parts known.

Maybe it doesn’t make them better but at least there were no secrets.

I take responsibility for all I have known to be bad.

I apologize and have worked on mending the bad.

However I cannot want what I don’t desire and if I don’t see it or imagine it isn’t there it was probably something I didn’t want in the first place.

If it is something egregious and bad my fear and anger of it has kept me away.

However, if I loved it and wanted it, happiness only comes from thinking about it.

So envision what makes you calm and elated that is what you need.

-Jennie Nawrocki

I am slowing down my social media interactions.

Decided that it was the same story.

No new chapters.

You don’t want the same and I don’t want it either.

I need progress.

But I only descend deeper into hell.

I guess that is progress for those that want me there but for me it is everything I fight.

If I can’t live positive then something has to change.

So I thought social media would be good.

If it seems different I might return but why return somewhere negative.

To make positive but how?

-Jennie Nawrocki